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tolaywaste) wrote2014-05-25 07:48 pm
tolaywaste) wrote2014-05-25 07:48 pm
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[Since the other Barge, Alex has been quiet. A lot of the anger he was feeling in the last few months has gone, or at least - more likely - been suppressed. He let out too much anger when he was there, and it probably still counts. Probably.]
[With Aeryn graduated - which he doesn't make an announcement about; it was her business to say goodbye to people, if she wanted to - he's quieter still. His habits become almost pathological. In the morning he runs in the CES. During the day, he spends time in the gym, maybe too much, and visits Ben in the kitchens.]
[And then, on a whim, he starts visiting the gardens. They remind him of Snow. Lately, idly, he's been thinking of visiting her. Seeing the forest she talked about.]
[The gardens are the place where he smiles most, at nothing in particular that's outside of his head.]
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[He has to knock on her door with an elbow, because his hands are full. Full of bowls and plates haphazardly covered with tinfoil. It actually smells good, although he's dead certain he fucked something up. He's never cooked, properly cooked, without her before.]
[But at least he didn't set anything on fire.]
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[Alex is pretty sure that most people, on meeting him, would never suspect he's got the problem of thinking too much. Maybe the opposite. He knows he's no genius, especially compared with some of the people on board, and a lot of times he lets his heart do his thinking instead of his brain.]
[But in terms of ruminating, perseverating, worrying, he does that plenty. And this is something he's thought about for maybe too long. Maybe he should have done it before. But things just kept coming up.]
[There won't be a perfect time to ask a favor this big. He's tried to resign himself to that, but it'd be a lie to say he's not nervous as he knocks on Ben's door.]
[Since the other Barge, Alex has been quiet. A lot of the anger he was feeling in the last few months has gone, or at least - more likely - been suppressed. He let out too much anger when he was there, and it probably still counts. Probably.]
[With Aeryn graduated - which he doesn't make an announcement about; it was her business to say goodbye to people, if she wanted to - he's quieter still. His habits become almost pathological. In the morning he runs in the CES. During the day, he spends time in the gym, maybe too much, and visits Ben in the kitchens.]
[And then, on a whim, he starts visiting the gardens. They remind him of Snow. Lately, idly, he's been thinking of visiting her. Seeing the forest she talked about.]
[The gardens are the place where he smiles most, at nothing in particular that's outside of his head.]
spam } anya
[He has to knock on her door with an elbow, because his hands are full. Full of bowls and plates haphazardly covered with tinfoil. It actually smells good, although he's dead certain he fucked something up. He's never cooked, properly cooked, without her before.]
[But at least he didn't set anything on fire.]
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[Alex is pretty sure that most people, on meeting him, would never suspect he's got the problem of thinking too much. Maybe the opposite. He knows he's no genius, especially compared with some of the people on board, and a lot of times he lets his heart do his thinking instead of his brain.]
[But in terms of ruminating, perseverating, worrying, he does that plenty. And this is something he's thought about for maybe too long. Maybe he should have done it before. But things just kept coming up.]
[There won't be a perfect time to ask a favor this big. He's tried to resign himself to that, but it'd be a lie to say he's not nervous as he knocks on Ben's door.]
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But then, I usually can.
[Sheepish and warm at the same time.]
He's a pretty good guy to take after. If you had to pick.
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[A half-smile.]
I guess I could've picked worse. If I'd picked.
Does this place wear you down ever? Or do you think you're gonna stay? You know, for good.
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But it doesn't, really, not the same way it does you. Knocks me down, sometimes, but it feels like it always builds me back up.
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[And, you know, pretty observant.]
Most people probably figure it's just the stoic hero thing.
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I don't have a stoic hero thing.
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Shut up.
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I will allow, you're not quite that bad.
[She loves you both a lot, okay.]
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Just close to it.
Well, I'm gonna stoically miss you, then. Since that's how I do things.
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[Can't be contained!!!]
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[You tiny precious drama queen.]
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[Thanks.]