[Nevertheless, he stills when Ben touches him, because that is what he does. That's the obedient thing to do. Ben has conflicting feelings about obedience from other people, Alex thinks, but doesn't know himself exactly what he thinks about obedience, other than that he's too disorderly to follow anyone's lead most of the time.]
[He can feel Ben's pulse in his fingers, as well as his own against Ben's skin. He misses Snow. She helped him understand his place and how to push against it.]
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[Nevertheless, he stills when Ben touches him, because that is what he does. That's the obedient thing to do. Ben has conflicting feelings about obedience from other people, Alex thinks, but doesn't know himself exactly what he thinks about obedience, other than that he's too disorderly to follow anyone's lead most of the time.]
[He can feel Ben's pulse in his fingers, as well as his own against Ben's skin. He misses Snow. She helped him understand his place and how to push against it.]
I have lots of dreams.