It hasn't always been easy to. I know most tend to turn towards God and their faith in times of crisis, but...after my mother became sick and my father died...
[She shakes her head.]
I couldn't understand it. I thought maybe I had done something wrong or that God had abandoned me, abandoned Tabor. I was so angry with Him for so long.
I never stopped praying though.
I prayed every night, every morning, and every meal even when I thought it was falling on deaf ears. But I came to realize, that was the one thing that Ravenna could never take from me. She took away my father - the last of my family - and she took away my freedom while she ruined Tabor, but she couldn't take my hope away from me.
[Snow frowns a little and looks down at her lap.]
Ravenna did evil things, but she wasn't evil herself. The only thing she had left was her pain and power.
[She looks back up at Alex.]
I know it might sound strange, but if I had given up in believing in God and the belief there was a meaning behind the suffering she inflicted on herself and everyone around her, I never would have been able to forgive her for what she did. Holding onto that kind of anger turns into bitterness and hatred faster than any one person can realize. And if I had become that? [Snow shakes her head again.] I never would have forgiven myself.
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I do.
It hasn't always been easy to. I know most tend to turn towards God and their faith in times of crisis, but...after my mother became sick and my father died...
[She shakes her head.]
I couldn't understand it. I thought maybe I had done something wrong or that God had abandoned me, abandoned Tabor. I was so angry with Him for so long.
I never stopped praying though.
I prayed every night, every morning, and every meal even when I thought it was falling on deaf ears. But I came to realize, that was the one thing that Ravenna could never take from me. She took away my father - the last of my family - and she took away my freedom while she ruined Tabor, but she couldn't take my hope away from me.
[Snow frowns a little and looks down at her lap.]
Ravenna did evil things, but she wasn't evil herself. The only thing she had left was her pain and power.
[She looks back up at Alex.]
I know it might sound strange, but if I had given up in believing in God and the belief there was a meaning behind the suffering she inflicted on herself and everyone around her, I never would have been able to forgive her for what she did. Holding onto that kind of anger turns into bitterness and hatred faster than any one person can realize. And if I had become that? [Snow shakes her head again.] I never would have forgiven myself.